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2010-04-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

Um hiiii! Im back. Hehehe. Sorry, I only come back when I need you bloggie. Today, 4 April is an okay day. I've been laughing & talking alot these days. My mind is free from problems. Things don't mess with my head anymore. I just quit work recently and I seemed to have more free time now. Something's telling me that this is the time. The time to grip to everything I've thrown away. I want to see everyone I miss. I want to share every joke I laughed at everyday. I've been studying too! I read self-improvement books, novels and learning foreign languages. I just want to run around freely. Im learning to be open now. I learn something about myself too bloggie! I, Nurul Husnina Azhar, learn to love her name and herself. I love me for me and only me.

Still..
I still think I got through life being lucky. I got lucky with my Os. I got lucky with guys. I got lucky with ..
No, I have enough confidence and self-esteem. Just that..
I admit I still hasn't let go. It's just there. Time will tell. Yes, I believed Aqilah now.
I lost somebody important too for the past month. I lost one of my kittens, whom I adored so much. You might laughed and think it's so foolish to grieve over a kitten. But it feels like.. if only I taken better care of it. If only I've seen it coming sooner.
My grandmother's getting better. I prayed she gets better. This whole experience has opened my eyes to reality. Life isn't always easy.

I'm still cutting my hair. Hehehe. There's so little time for so many things. I don't want to waste my time anymore! Over small things, pfft. Im going to be busy as a bee.

Aim for the end of the month: To keep laughing with friends; Khad & Aqilah, To finish story; 10 wishes, To cut hair, Keep believing <3

I love everyone including Justin Beiber <3

2010-01-13T08:44:00.000-08:00

"Lets go party, work that body"

Uwaaa, I'm tired but I'm still awake. Check fb (?!), allkpop and ygladies. Went to ACJC open house. Then, went back to YI to get Aqilah's testimonial from Ms Tan. Then, off to Somerset to meet boys for karaoke. I'm broke now. Left 20cents. Heh.

Im still stuck on my 12 choices. Aigoo, i need help really. And really, its good to see Aqilah picking herself up well. I hope the others are fine. Truthfully to say, I'd give you guys my results anytime. Seeing them cry and dissapointed is really heartbreaking you know? Like I know how hard each of us work and still ... I'm starting to think I actually got lucky. Hearing Aqilah says she feels like there is no ray of light shining on her ... Hun, I'll give you my ray of light anytime. I hope everyone who's feeling down to cheer up. Like Erman says, it's easy for me to say. But hey, I'm trying dude. Do you want my results then? Hmm.

I know I didn't do my best for O levels and know I could do better, but is my brain level up to a JC student? So yeah, I'm not really opting for JC.

All my older posts are actually drafts on my blog now. Like I have tons of them. I think Im born with the awkward and shy charm? Like I will completely not talk to a stranger if I don't know him/her? Or I don't know what to say to a guy/girl? Like the situation will get awkward once Im alone with a guy/girl? Like I don't really like to show my feelings and hide? Yeah, like Im not easily open? Is it even a charm in the first place?

-.-

Big dreams wait for me. Nyna wants to focus on other things besides love. Love can wait. Nyna still loves you btw :P

Will post another oneshot soon: The five mistakes of love in a lifetime.

xoxo.

2010-01-10T17:09:00.000-08:00

If he wasn't popular, his talent probably be wasted. Recommended to watch. Listen to his ability to hit high notes. Taeyang, I love you HAHAHAHA. Im happy that you popularity is definitely soaring now :D

Omo, jitters in my stomach. There's no turning back now. Can do this! Can do this! Oh, my sister tried the Sandara Park hair on my hair! Gahhhs, killing me.

The oneshot below is done in a rush so it's not that good. Oh well, constructive criticism are welcome again :D

Cant wait to meet my friends. Love you all.
xoxo

2010-01-10T16:39:00.000-08:00

ONESHOT #2 The A-Z of A Boy I Know

Yes,
A boy in which I think I know,
B alls, in which that's exactly I'd like to kick him,
C andies & Chocolates, in which he definitely dislikes,
D ance, in which he claimed his middle name is,
E ccentric, in which I claimed his attitude is,
F riends, in which he he claimed that's what we are,
G ags, in which he claimed are funny,
H andphone, in which he claimed he has,
I diotic dunce, in which I claimed he is,
J essice Alba, in which he claimed his wife is,
K ing of the world, in which he claimed he is,
L ove, in which I gave to him,
M ichael Jackson, in which he claimed, he is, (again)
N ina, wait that's my name,
O bnoxious, that's what I claimed he is,
P retty girls, in which he claimed he likes,
Q uiet, in which others claimed he is,
R eality, in which he has to click himself into,
S eptember, in which I had nothing to say,
T ....,
U nderdog, and again that's what others claimed about him,
V ....,
W ar, that's what I claimed,
X enophobia, in which he claimed he has,
Y uck, in which I go everytime I see him,
Z oo, in which monkeys like him should be placed at!

[According to Longman Dictionary,
Claimed - state something without being able to prove it]

2010-01-09T09:57:00.000-08:00

Aigoo, I think I can be really considered as an owl. Kekeke. I really cannot sleep. Any help people? I think Im going crazy that I actually consider cutting my hair. How? Can?

Thinking about results coming out in a few days drive me nuts you know? Hahahah. Im tired if people telling me "You're clever," "No need to worry,". Pfft. Well, I guess at times like these, you are the only one who know how well and how hard you've tried. And lemme tell you, nope, it wasn't my best. Blergh, what can i do now? Nothing. I hope for the best. Not for me, for all my friends too! I haven't forgotten you guys okay! ^^

The oneshot I wrote below comes from my deep depth feelings.
When I think about it,
I remember how I used,
wonder... whether I should text him,
wonder... whether if he would not reply me (like he always do)
wonder... if this is the right way to do it
wonder... if what I felt and wrote before were all true
STOP!
I dont need to wonder anymore. I dont care eh eh eh eh :) I'll give a smile to you when I see you. And hopefully, we'll chat. I don't think you'll read this, so yeahhhhhhh.

xoxo.

2010-01-09T09:31:00.000-08:00

[Oneshot] DontEvenGetMeStartedDude!

Must it be that guys are always the ones that make the first move?
Is it required that guys have to be the one asking the girls out, instead of the other way around?
Why can’t the girls ask the guys out for a change?
It’s not like it’s something embarrassing to ask a guy that you like to go out with you.
I mean, seriously.
You’ve liked someone before, right?
Let me guess, you wanted to ask him out but you didn’t have the courage to or because your friends says that he has to do the asking. Guys are seen as brave young men that are not scared of anything. Right?
Wrong.
Guys are as sensitive as we are.
They feel the same way we feel when we have a crush on the opposite sex.
They also wish for us to ask them out.
Sometimes we really give them a hard time because we act like we don’t give a sh*t about them when in reality, we do.
They cannot read our mind.
Did you think that they can detect every thought that is in our mind?
No. They can’t.
Damn, And all I wanted was for him to notice me, really.
I'm not being greedy (note: biased to ownself)
Seriously, I dont even know where I find the patience, tolerance and time to do 1000 hearts.
Like pffft.
A girl like me, dont even get me started, i probably gave up making one. Your actions confuse me.
Time will tell, my ass!
Maybe my mind was driving me nuts, and maybe I intepret the situation differently.
Maybe your glances were just random and not purpose.
And maybe my heart was just dying of thirst, to just hear those magnificent three words every person in love is dying to hear.
Or wait, maybe i was 2 seconds late? 3 seconds late?
Nope, you can't even lie straight. Can you?
I see where you're looking at (Self-intepret please)

You tell me what it takes to be beautiful
Do I need to cut my hair short
or makeup is all I can afford
Do i need to be taller and slimmer
Or do I need to be exactly the way you want your dream girl to be
Is that what it takes for you to look at me
Cos no im doing it

What do you do when the world expects you to move on?
Yes, you move on.

A/N: So how? How? Any comments? If they are good comments, then maybe I'll post more of my stories. ^.^